Oops. I've become a fish.
When you're winning it's easy to convince yourself that you will be able to cope with the inevitable downswings and breakeven stretches. However, in the midst of one of them I'm discovering that it's not nearly as easy as I expected. It's surprisingly easy to fall into a pattern of negative self talk, and I'm disappointed to find myself repeating "I just can't win", "I'm so bad", "why do I even bother" and other similarly unhelpful mantras. Unfortunately I have been running slightly below breakeven since Black Friday, over 2 months ago. On the plus side I am now about $7k below all-in EV for the year. While this is not an accurate indicator of my true expected results, it does indicate that things have not gone terribly well for me when all the chips are in the middle. If I keep doing what I'm doing it's most likely a matter of time before things turn around.
I've ended up taking a lot of time off during June, first to go on a long weekend for a best friend's stag do. Secondly spending nearly a week in Ireland due to a family emergency. It's put me massively behind on my Supernova targets, but I have to say it was great to spend some time with friends and family, relaxing and clearing my head.
Now it's time to hit the tables with renewed vigor. Keep working on my game. Keep putting in the hours. The results will come!
Wish me luck.....
May profit: -$496
Yearly profit: +$16,258
Current VPPs: 69,198
